Pamper Yourself

I do not know why I'm thinking of this now haha. Since none of my best friends are online so I just write it here. It's a funny thing actually but I just realize it now. When I was still wearing a uniform in school, I always tucked my shirt in and had a short hair. When I was still living in Jakarta, I cleaned up my garden, washed my dad's car every single day without fail. My neighbour used to ask me "why u clean ur garden everyday?" and my friends in school used to ask me " why don't u pull down ur pants and tuck ur shirt out?" For my best friends, I'm sure u guys know how clean and neat my house really is.

Honestly, our home affects the way we feel. I give my room my personality while my family give my house their personality. Neatness costs NOTHING! Better to live in one-room apartment that is clean, than in a mansion that's a mess. People sometimes do judging others by the way they dress. Some people believe the way u dress reflect ur personality and I agree with it to a large extent.

I learn a lot from my parents to pamper urself, nourish ur body, keep a clean house and u would feel blessed by life. Everything affects everything else. The way u dress affects the way u feel. The way u walk affects the way u talk. The care u give to urself, u will give it to others.

My Reflection of 2009

2010 is coming so I guess I've to write my reflection, just like what my best friend did a few days ago. I think 2009 is the year that I would not forget in my life since in the beginning of the year I moved to USA. My family and I start a new life in Texas. I think whatever I did in the past like I made a reckless decision about studying in Singapore and tried to learned English over there really affect the present and the future. When I moved to Singapore, I didn't tell my friends, even my best friend because I knew my friends would tell me not to go, plus I scared to say good bye to them haha silly me. I started all over again in Singapore, learning everything I already knew in english. Even until now some part of me still regret my decision to study in Singapore. It's like I was wasting my time. Additionally, I lost contact with mostly all my high school friends because internet in Jakarta was not really good that time. However, I did adapt incredibly fast in USA. For example, I passed all my placement test for college. Even for American people to pass placement test is hard and I just did it so easily. Moreover, I think because of my good grade so far till fall 2009, I got grant so I don't need to pay the school fee for spring semester. I'm glad that finally I could help my parents. My sacrifices like my time, hard work, etc have paid off. My dad always says that the universe seek balance and according to my experience it's true. People lost something and people gain something!

Merry Christmas. May God be with us and in our heart always & ever!!

It's Christmas again but this year in 2009, I'm celebrating Christmas in the different place again. Currently, I'm living in Irving, Texas. My family and I moved to USA since 5th of May. I hope I could stay longer in one place haha because I really do miss my friends in Singapore and Indonesia. I wanna celebrate Christmas with them but now I could only pray for them. It seems that everyone in Irving is celebrating Christmas and they're full of joy. Children are singing and people are smiling to one another. Everywhere I go, I could hear Christmas songs being played. On Dec 24, snow started falling down from the sky in the morning. Make the white Christmas that everyone talks about real haha. This's some kind of miracle because I heard from the local people, it normally snows once a year but this year is different. May be God wanna say something to us, His people. I really hope people in Jakarta could celebrate Christmas in peace too since I read in the news one of the church, St Albert in Bekasi was burned down by "pribumi." I feel really bad and angry about it but I could not do anything beside praying. Sometimes I really hate myself for not being able to make a difference or at least help somebody in need. Anyway, early December I felt quite happy since I could help sisters (female member of a religious community) wrapping Christmas gifts and foods for the poor. I believe peace on earth will come to stay when we live Christmas every day!

What is a miracle?

What is a miracle? It is when the impossible happens.

It’s when doctors have given up on a sick child and for no scientific reason, that child gets well.

It’s when you’re down to your last dollar, have piles of bills to be paid, and a check arrives in the mail from some unknown source.

It’s when a hurricane comes through a town and your house is left standing with desolation all around it.

It’s when a child is born and you can’t believe how exquisitely miniature this new life appears.

It’s when you’ve prayed for a specific purpose and that prayer is answered.

It’s when there is no earthly reason something wonderful has happened.

Miracles take place everyday. Sometimes they’re very subtle and quiet, sweeping in like a touch on the face. Other times, it’s very evident and public. It doesn’t matter who you are, miracles can happen to anyone.

Why do miracles take place? It may be that God wants your attention!

When you believe in God, you gain an awareness of Him. You see everything in a new light. He shows His great power through the trials and tribulations of life, through nature and science.

God is in the impossible business. What is a miracle? Someone once said, “Coincidence is when God wants to remain anonymous.” Well, miracles are when God reveals Himself.

All glory and honor and praise belong to Him. Without Him there would be no miracles!

The truth may hurt me but your lies kill me!

Your lies
by A.G.K.H.

your lies have motivated me
your lies comfort me
your lies cheer me up
your lies encourage me in many ways
your lies have soften my heart
your lies strike my soul
your lies cause me could not sleep at night
your lies have changed me
your lies hurt me sometimes
your lies make me think of you every night
your lies make me lie to myself
your lies make me feel I'm not alone
your lies drive me crazy
your lies blind my judgment
your lies make me want you more and more
your lies turn my best friend to my enemy
your lies successfully tame the beast in me
your lies easily take the key of my heart
your lies make me feel stronger than ever
your lies have tought me how to love
your lies are comforter to my soul
your lies help me to get over my fear
your lies have helped me to see the truth
your lies are the based of our relationship
your lies have buried me but I forgive you
Thanks for all ur lies!

The Sun is shining

The Sun is Shining
by A.G.K.H.

When the sky's clear
The sun will shine brightly

somewhere two people are laughing
and talking about what might

What might have been another year
for us to spend together

Somewhere two people laugh and joke
and carry on all day

Chatting about their past and future
in an extraordinary way

Talking about fond memories
how they made a bond

They're different in many ways
but both especially fond

To You From Me ^^

To You From Me

The hardest part of being a friend
is knowing when you need it a little
and when you need it a lot.

So just in case you're in need
of a friendly "hi" today,
I wanted to let you know I'm here still caring,
still thinking about you,
and still being your friend.

On the road

On the road
by A.G.K.H

Past this place in the road
There isn't much traffic on the road
But I see many people walking
Someone is standing there

As I approach, I notice she is beautiful
Excuse me young lady, you are carying great load
Where are you going? Maybe I can help you?
If you need a ride, I'd be happy to oblige

Get in to my car, I'll take you for a ride
Down country roads, up city streets
I can get you where you need to go
Because I'm a country boy

You sure look good, sitting in left seat
Fasten your seat belt young lady
Because I'll take you through the five speeds
She smiles up and she knows she'll be all right

The pop songs on the radio is really good
I crank up the volume as the tone got real good
Let me know when we're getting close
So you can slide out from my car

I stop my car as I see her house
She slides out and smile up to the sky
She thanks me for this one day
I wish I could take her for a ride again someday

A LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS

What do you think of when you think of darkness? Walking in the night to find you need the light to see? Our world is covered in darkness half of the time and without it; humans along with some nocturnal animals would not survive. The fact that most of us live 9 to 12 hours in darkness can be a blessing; it gives our bodies time to wind down and regenerate for the next day. But what if darkness encompassed the earth 24/7, what would our planet be like? Well my guess would be we would inhabit a pretty grim planet and would probably not survive for long. There would be too many hours of darkness after a period of time, and I can't imagine much would be left on the planet. We really need light for plants, animals and humans to survive a balanced life on earth.

If you look at the shades of color in the rainbow they are the color shades of what emanates from earth and sky and what comes in between. These color hues accent the earth and sky and these colors live in you. The only darkness that comes to us is at night but yet the Universal Light is always glowing between Heaven and Earth. It is at these times of the day that we sleep and are wrapped in the tranquility of what the earth and sky offer us to prepare for the journey into the dream world.

Even though the sun comes up every morning there are some people on this planet that remain in darkness. The darkness that blankets the earth every night lives in their soul. This darkness is; an emotional darkness defined dark by emotional feelings and thoughts. The darkness that individuals feel can be a place of sadness and despair. Some live their entire life's story in this darkness consumed with resentment and anger. Life is a pretty grim place for them and if they are not conscious within; this will only repeat itself over and over again until they die. Disease and despair go hand in hand and the dark cloud will always be with them.

Know that there is hope and hope is changing your thoughts, changing your thoughts to positive and happier thoughts. As simple as it may sound, there are many that will have to dig deep for this.

If you knew there was light at the end of your dark tunnel you would probably feel better? What if I told you the light was inside you and always has been? Unfortunately when you live a life of depression or sadness the light inside you dims and anything that is full of light repels. This means it will be difficult to find pleasure in life and be happy.

Once you change old thoughts for better positive thoughts the light comes and washes over you. You feel renewed and feel better. If you sat and listened to the thoughts that came to you, you would find that most were endless chatter of negative thoughts. The moment that you stop listening to chatter and tell yourself you have had enough, is the moment your life turns around for the better and moments you've spent in darkness are gone.

Reach out to the universe and become the person you want to be. Stop the darkness from entering and believe your life can change for the better. We are all here on this earth to be happy and live out our dreams. Life is supposed to be fun and if your life hasn't been fun for a long time change the track you are on and move forward in another direction. Make sure that it is in the direction that has all your hopes and dreams waiting for you at the other end. Don't get dragged down by what you feel is suppose to be your life. Take a moment each day and appreciate all that you have.

If you want to change your situation and escape the darkness, know that you can find the answers within you. Breathe and within you will find the essence of who you are. When you do this the shrouded light will become bright and will shine through. When you take the time and breathe with each breath you will feel essence reaching out to you to help. If you feel a wave of happiness or contentment you have found it... as brief as it may be... it is there for you. You will know you have found when you feel happy...

Happiness is here and you are no longer in darkness!

The Police - Every Breath You Take

The song is incredible, and I love how the video is shot
I love the Police. It's just such a beautiful song
One of my favorite song and band

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Prayer by Nami Tamaki

I realized my true feelings
But I was way too scared to tell you
I want to send it to you right now
The word I couldn't say

The evening sky is about to weep
I stop still in the growing wind as I look at it

There were people everywhere, but now I realize
That I was just looking for your back

Now a snowflake has suddenly
Fallen on my cheek
When I caught it in my outstretched hand
It quickly melted and disappeared

The white snow, hidden by the clouds
Lights up my anxious heart
Surely you are somewhere at the end
Of this road shrouded in darkness

Even though I was always having fun with people like me
I held a little loneliness somewhere in my heart

Even when these precarious days make me want to give up
Your kindness is there

A snowflake will probably fall
On your cheek about now
I pray that when I reach out my arm
It will touch your cheek

The shooting star that fell then
Heard my wish
Even though our hands are apart now
I want to put them together as if praying

I realized my true feelings
But I was way too scared to tell you
I want to send it to you right now
The word I couldn't say

Now a snowflake has suddenly
Fallen on my cheek
When I caught it in my outstretched hand
It quickly melted and disappeared

The white snow, hidden by the clouds
Lights up my anxious heart
Surely you are somewhere at the end
Of this road shrouded in darkness

Best friend

I just want to say,

Friendship is not how you forget but how you forgive,
Not how you listen but how you understand,
Not what you see but how you feel,
and not how you let go but how you hold on!!!

Our past diminishes into the race of time but our future are bright.
Our time together is wilting away more and more everyday,
but now until the very end, you will always be my best friend.

Would You See Me...

Sahabat adalah cahaya!

Sahabat adalah cahaya
Yang terangnya dapat menyembuhkan
Hati yang terluka

Sahabat adalah kasih sayang
yang menghangatkan hati
dan mendamaikan dunia

Danny Fernandes - Fantasy

This song is just simply awesome!!!!!!!

The longest journey is the journey inward.

The longest journey
by A.G.K.H

Who am I supposed to be?
What is the meaning of my life?
What is my purpose in life?
My destiny haunts me day,
my destiny haunts me at nights.
My destiny speaks to me each morning,
still I have not understood what 'Destiny is'.
My destiny keeps me up at nights pondering about 'Destiny',
which I have heard so much about.
Yet I can not find the answer to my own destiny.
Seeing my fellow human it would appear that
most of them have found the secret to this destiny.
However, some like myself are still in search of our destiny.

Curved Red on Blue

Curved Red on Blue

What is this life that I live
What is this life that I always seem to give
What is this life when I'm willing to strive
What is this life when no one cares
What is this life when no one is there
What is this life when you always have pain inside
What is life when it's always dark and not light
What is life when everyone seems to kill one another
What is life when everyone tells all these lies
What is life when everyone wants to die
What is life when everyone seems to cry
What is life when no one value their own life
What is life when no one wants to be apart of your life
What is life when you just give up on everything inside
What is life when everyone wants to steal
What is life when someone wants to take their own life and just die

What should I do next?

When I was still studying in Singapore, my goals were to graduate from Whitley, studying in Temasek Poly, got degree, and got a great job. I could actually see that clearly but I've changed my path, I chose to continue my studies in USA. My life's gettin harder and the worse of all, I really could not see which path I should take and every path seems so dark and cloudy. My parent has not found any job yet so definitely it would affect my education and life. Therefore, I try to find a job but so far I got nothing. Recently, I was really busy in school & really didn't have much time to relax and think what should I do next in life or what is my next step? I definitely have to do something in life and make a different. I think I have to start to get a right mindsets for myself! Yes, I could succeed in life! I'm a fighter! I could do this!

Nothing is permanent in this wicked world

Nothing Last Forever
by A.G.K.H.

I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You are a stranger to me now.
I'm left with emptiness...
I wish I knew how it could be,
that we were once so open and free.
You were like my sister...yet so much more.
I wish I would have seen what I see now before.
For, I did not and it's too late...
My friend, my lover once, is now unknown.
And what hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
and not a moment with you I've spent.
I hope one day I can forgive you, my friend..
I miss you....
Where are you?

Another Flier ^^

Today I've to make another flier to help our brother and sister in Philippine. It took me 4 hours to finish this flier. At first, I really had no idea and I thought I had to start designing and then the idea somehow might just flow into my brain. So this is the outcome, hopefully it would work.

Color of Nature

When I'm looking to the sky...

Go Green ^^

PROMISE

Promise

As you sit in silence,
Wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

Empty Space

Empty Space
by A.G.K.H.

Time is rolling on
It is just like another day
Suddenly something has distracted me
Oh...it is the empty room in my heart
I could not remember what it was there before
Every single room has been occupied
But why this little room here is empty
Why did I empty it in the first place?

Gerald's Darkest Hour

My Darkest Hour
by A.G.K.H.

The sky goes black and clouds gather
Water starts to drop from the dark sky
it has been raining for two days
I watch and smell the rain from my dark room

I hope the rain could wash away my pain
The pain I get from the battle
Battle against my inner demon
The darkest inside of me is getting stronger

I feel like losing my mind
I'm losing my grip
My relationship with all my friends become tense
Thanks to my irrational action and thought

It seems like the sky is falling on me
Everything I know has let me down
My friends know my name but they don't know who I am
So I will just let go

This darkness has just proved I'm wrong
My belief has let me down
I let it to turn me inside out
Cause I'm not sure about anything

What is this? the sky seems like crying for me
Maybe the sky know me better than anyone
Since the sky watches over me every single day
This is my darkest hour

Full Moon

Full Moon
by A.G.K.H.

Last year in this night and on this day
The night where we were still together
The night where we watched full moon together
Time flies so fast and brings us to the end
No more you and me...

Now I cannot stop pacing
This cannot be happening
This is over my head
Do I still love you after all?
or I just feel lonely?

But I believe I'm not the only one
I'm not the only one feeling sad tonight
Somewhere someone feel the empty cold night

The Thinker: An Overview

Thinkers are both indirect and guarded. They are concerned with analytical processes and are persistent, systematic problem-solvers. They can also be seen as aloof, picky and critical. Thinkers are very security-conscious and have a high need to be right, leading them to an overreliance on data collection. In their quest for data, they tend to ask many questions about specifics. Their actions and decisions tend to be slow and extremely cautious, but they will rarely miss a deadline. Although they are great problem-solvers, Thinkers could be better decision-makers.

Thinkers tend to be perfectionists, serious, and orderly. They focus on the details and the process of work, and become irritated by surprises and “glitches.” Their theme is, “Notice my efficiency,” and their emphasis is on compliance and working within existing guidelines to promote quality in products or service.

Thinkers like organization and structure and dislike too much involvement with other people. They work slowly and precisely by themselves, are time-disciplined, and prefer an intellectual work environment. Thinkers tend to be critical of their own performance. They tend to be skeptical and like to see things in writing.

Thinkers’ primary strengths are their accuracy, dependability, independence, follow-through and organization. Their primary weaknesses are their procrastination and conservative natures, which promote their tendency to be picky and over-cautious. Occupations that they tend to gravitate toward are accounting, engineering, computer programming, the hard sciences (chemistry, physics, math), systems analysis and architecture.

The greatest irritation for Thinkers is disorganized, illogical people. In business environments, they want others to be credible, professional, and courteous. In social environments, they like others to be pleasant and sincere.

Environmental clues include highly organized desks with clear tops. Their office walls contain their favorite types of artwork: charts, graphs, exhibits or pictures pertaining to the job. Thinkers are non-contact people who prefer the formality of distance. This preference is reflected in the functional but uninviting arrangement of their desks and chairs. They are not fond of huggers and touchers, and prefer a cool handshake or a brief phone call.

To improve their balance and behavioral flexibility, Thinkers need to: openly show concern and appreciation of others; try shortcuts and time-savers occasionally; adjust more readily to change and disorganization; improve timely decision-making and initiation of new projects; compromise with the opposition; state unpopular decisions; and use policies more as guidelines than hard and fast laws.

THINKER STYLE

• Cautious actions and decisions
• Likes organization and structure
• Dislikes involvement
• Asks many questions about specific details
• Prefers objective, task-oriented, intellectual work environment
• Wants to be right, so can be overly reliant on data collection
• Works slowly and precisely alone
• Good problem solving skills

UNDER STRESS, THINKERS: WILL WITHDRAW

EXAMPLE of Typical response to stressful situation:
"I can't help you any further. Do what you want."

MAY APPEAR

• Over-reliant on data and documentation
• Resistant to change
• Slow to act
• Slow to begin work
• Unable to meet deadlines
• Unimaginative
• Withdrawn
• Resentful

NEED

• Guarantees that they're right
• Understanding of principles and details
• Slow pace for "processing" information
• Accuracy

To Increase Behavioral Adaptability, Thinkers Need To...

Openly show concern and appreciation of others

Occasionally try short cuts and timesavers

Adjust more readily to change and disorganization

Work on timely decision making

Initiate new projects

Compromise with the opposition

State unpopular decisions

Use policies as guidelines, rather than laws

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

You’re on the phone with your girlfriend, shes upset
Shes going off about something that you said
Cause she doesn’t get your humor like I do
I’m in my room, it’s a typical Tuesday night
I’m listening to the kind of music she doesn’t like
And she’ll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She’s cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me, you belong with me

Walkin’ the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can’t help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn’t this easy

And you’ve got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven’t seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you’re fine, I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
Shes cheer captain and I’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know baby
You belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you drivin’ to my house in the middle of the night
I’m the one who makes you laugh, when you know you’re ’bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me ’bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it’s with me

Can’t you see that I’m the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can’t you see
You belong with me
Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time How could you not know
Baby you belong with me, you belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe you belong with me
You belong with me

Lighten Our Burdens

With God's tutelage and a lot of nudging, I've been through so far in life make me realize that the only way to lighten my burden is to share it with others. For examples, your friends, your family, people who I could trust, get along well with, or feel comfortable with. There are several times in life when I really did wanna give up or run away and ignore everything since I was sick and tired but in that moment of despair, my heart would not let me do as I wished for. Somehow, it would affect my attitude towards others but my friends and family would know that I was not myself. In the hopelessness, I always ask the Lord, "Why do you treat me so badly?" and I think He gives me the answer. He wants me to learn how to share my joy and sorrow. Joy shared is doubled; sorrow shared is halved. God sends us people to share our burdens too, but if our eyes are turned inward or looking at the ground, we will never see them. Look around to see whom God has sent you - either to halve your sorrow or double your joy.

Strong Meteor Shower Expected Tonight

The annual Perseid meteor shower is expected to put on a good show this week for those willing to get up in the wee hours of the morning and wait patiently for the shooting stars.

In North America, the best time to watch will be between midnight to 5 a.m. on Wednesday, Aug. 12, but late Tuesday night and also Wednesday night could prove fruitful, weather permitting.

The Perseids are always reliable, and sometimes rather spectacular. The only things that puts a damper on the August show are bad weather or bright moonlight. Unfortunately this week, as the Perseids reach their peak Tuesday and Wednesday nights, the moon will be high in the sky, outshining the fainter meteors.

Still, skywatchers around the globe will have a good chance of spotting the brighter meteors. Some already are enjoying the show.

Already underway

The Perseids are bits of debris from Comet Swift-Tuttle, which has laid down several streams of debris, each in a slightly different location, over the centuries as it orbits the sun. Every August, Earth passes through these debris streams, which spread out over time.

"They are typically fast, bright and occasionally leave persistent trains," says Joe Rao, SPACE.com's Skywatching Columnist. "And every once in a while, a Perseid fireball will blaze forth, bright enough to be quite spectacular and more than capable to attract attention even in bright moonlight."

Low numbers of Perseids, including some bright fireballs, have already been reported as Earth began entering the stream in late July. Seasoned observers have counted up to 25 per hour already, or nearly one every two minutes.

Most meteors are no bigger than a pea. They vaporize as they enter Earth's atmosphere, creating bright streaks across the sky.

The Perseids appear to emanate from the constellation Perseus, which rises high in the sky around midnight and is nearly overhead by dawn. Like most meteor showers, the hours between midnight and daybreak are typically the best time to watch, because that's when the side of Earth you are on is rotating into the direction of Earth's travels through space, so meteors are "scooped up" by the atmosphere at higher rates, much like a car's windshield ends the lives of more bugs than does the rear bumper.

Astronomers expect up to 200 meteors per hour in short bursts of up to 15 minutes or so. But many of the fainter meteors will simply not be visible due to moonlight, and rates will go down even more for those in urban areas. More likely a typical observer under reasonably dark skies might hope to see a meteor every couple minutes when the bursts come, and fewer during lulls.

When to watch

The best time to watch is between midnight and dawn Wednesday. Forecasters say the best stretch could come between 4 a.m. and 5 a.m. ET (1-2 a.m. PT), which would be after daybreak in Europe. Some Perseids might be visible late Tuesday night, and Wednesday night into Thursday morning could prove worthwhile, too.

Meteor forecasting is still in its infancy, however, so the best bet for anyone truly hungry to spot shooting stars is to get in as much observing time as possible from around 11 p.m. Tuesday night until dawn Wednesday, and if you miss that show, try the same time frame Wednesday evening into Thursday morning.

Meteors should be visible in the pre-dawn hours, weather permitting, all around the Northern Hemisphere.

"Earth passes through the densest part of the debris stream sometime on Aug. 12," said Bill Cooke of NASA's Meteoroid Environment Office. "Then, you could see dozens of meteors per hour."

Viewing tips

The best location is far from city and suburban lights. Ideally, find a structure, mountain or tree to block the moon. Then scan as much of the sky as possible. The meteors can appear anywhere, heading in any direction. If you trace their paths backward, they'll all point to the constellation Perseus.

People in locations where any chill might occur should dress warmer than they think necessary to allow for prolonged viewing.

Seasoned skywatchers advise using a blanket or lounge chair for comfort, so you can lie back and look up for long periods. Allow at least 15 minutes for your eyes to fully adjust to the darkness. Then expect meteors to be sporadic: You might see two in a row, or several minutes could go by between shooting stars.

Avid meteor watchers might want to try scanning the northeastern horizon from 9 p.m. to 11 p.m. local time (your local time, wherever you are) for Perseids that graze the horizon.

"Earthgrazers are meteors that approach from the horizon and skim the atmosphere overhead like a stone skipping across the surface of a pond," Cooke explained. "They are long, slow and colorful – among the most beautiful of meteors." He notes that an hour of watching may net only a few of these at most, but seeing even one can make the whole night worthwhile.

Everything's changing

I would turn 21 since today is my birthday. I feel like everything is changing, I get older each year, I gain more experience, I become wiser, I could deal with even harder problem in life and in my studies, I make more friends, and hopefully keep advancing in my progress to be a useful citizen of planet earth.

Somehow I just miss the time when people said thanks to me. I feel really happy when I could help people with my ability. I still remember when I thought my friends in the library, they said that I was a genius because I taught them so well even people like them could understand math. Every time I share my knowledge, I have more friends. Some people said that they just used me but I replied I would like to make a world a better place.

If I think about it, more successful people would make the world a better place. For example, what rich people do? They invest their money, they share their money with others for good. Smart people somehow affect the society where they live in.

A few days ago, I have a question in my head. The question is 'am I lying to myself?' When I see other people having some problems and I'm sure I could help them but I always think of excuses, I think about what will happen and then I come to the conclusion that I'm right not to interfere other people business. I know I am lying to myself and probably I know that better than anyone. So far, I always think that if people don't ask means they don't need the information or help.

Love VS Emotional Attachment

Most of us engage in a desperate search for someone to love us, but we confuse the issue by saying that we need someone to love. We say we want someone to share with, someone we can love, but what we are really saying is that we need someone to love us, someone who will make us feel important and keep us from feeling lonely. This is not love, but emotional attachment, which leads us into dependency.

We believe that we need this person to be happy, to be content, to be fulfilled. So our loving becomes distorted by our emotional needs. When they don't love us back, we feel miserable and unloved. When they aren't around, we feel lonely. We all have a remarkable, unlimited capacity to love one another. There is a wide range of expression of our love, from brotherly and sisterly love to romantic, sexual love. But as long as we continue to confuse love and emotional attachment, we will continue to be lonely, even when we have someone to love.

Mar⋅tyr

Are they willing to suffer & death rather than renounce his or her religion?

When the character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.

Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods!

Who's agree with me?

Who is agree with me?
'It's better to be hated for what you're than to be loved for what you are not' So I'm looking for friendship with honest people, sharing ideas and comments about life in general and I always need to talk with different people because different people will give me different responds, stories, point of views, opinion, etc

In the middle of the night

In the middle of the night
by A.G.K.H.

In the middle of the night
When I was in this dream
I felt you by my side
I couldn't forget the feeling of being whole
Because We formed this dream

You and I were one
You and I were having fun together
But so sudden it all ended
I began to fear
My dream turned up into a nightmare

Confuse

I didn't know why recently I like to watch sunset or floating in the swimming pool wondering whether what I did was wrong or right. What if it was wrong? What would it lead me to? Seriously not going to school for several month really drove me nuts, sometimes I lost track of time or wondering did I do something productive to achieve my goal recently? then I asked myself what's my goal?? I even forgot my own goal, OMG! When I was floating in the swimming pool I saw million of stars up there & I realized that they're in complete order and rotated in their own orbit. At least they're on their track and I started to ask myself 'Am I in the right track?' what if I was not. God completely controlled the starts, the sky, the suns, the birds and everything. The birds would sing every morning like it's the reason they're here on earth, their purpose is to sing glorying His name. What about my purpose? Why am I here?

Lately I was questioning myself how do I became happy? what's the important factor of being happy? I guess the answer is FREEDOM. When you're not in control of yourself, you will find it really hard to be happy, for examples, money controls you. You will suffer for that you will calculate every penny come out from your wallet and you work like crazy to get a lot of money and you never satisfy with it. Another good example, when your neighbour has a new car, you will also buy a new car. You would be blinded by your desire and make you not happy because you don't have a freedom to make choices all you know is you need to keep up with your neighbour's assets. Most people limit themselves by making this kind of statement by reaching this or get this or achieve this, I would be happy. WRONG! What're you goin to do next? Are you going to be happy forever by getting that? then next month you're unhappy again. Self mastery is a really hard thing to practice, even sometimes I find it very annoying to practice it.I just keep telling myself that I want peace and happiness so I don't want to be controlled by my passion and desire haha

Taylor Swift : Untouchable

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why

I'm caught up in you
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway

But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh

In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Oh, oh
I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, oh

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Mary: Virgin and Ever Virgin

Last Saturday when I was in LIC(it's not a catholic church), I found that they're insulting Mother Mary. So I did some research to strengthen my belief towards Mary this morning and I found tons of articles about Perpetual Virginity of Mary. And I'll post here one of the articles which is very easy to understand by non-catholic people.

Before writing this file I wondered, "Why would anyone be interested in the virginity of a little Jewish girl who lived 2000 years ago?" Can you think of another person in history that is so controversial regarding this subject?
I couldn't.
Then the answer came to me...
It is either because the persons questioning Blessed Mary's virginity, have no love for GOD and wish to hurt Him in any way they can, or it is because the Catholic Church teaches the perpetual virginity of Mary and this is just another way to put down the Church which Jesus Christ founded.

While dying on the cross, Jesus gave his mother to St. John (John 19:27). Why didn't He give her to one of her other children (as Protestants insist she had) instead? Jewish law would have demanded it. It is simply because Mary had no other children for Him to do so.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS
A DIRECT INSULT TO GOD THE FATHER, WHO SENT HIS ANGEL, GABRIEL, TO PROCLAIM TO HER, AND ONLY TO HER, "HAIL, FULL OF GRACE, THE LORD IS WITH THEE. BLESSED ART THOU AMONG WOMEN".

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS
A DIRECT INSULT TO THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO SANCTIFIED HER AS HIS SPOUSE, AND TO BE THE VESSEL TO CARRY THE WORD INCARNATE, THE SECOND PERSON OF THE HOLY TRINITY.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO JESUS CHRIST, WHO WAS THE ONLY BEGOTTEN OF HIS MOTHER, AS HE HIMSELF WAS THE ONLY BEGOTTEN OF HIS FATHER IN HEAVEN.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY, WHO WOULD HAVE TO HAVE CARRIED THE GUILT OF INGRATITUDE TO GOD FOREVER, IF SHE HAD DISCARDED THE PRECIOUS GIFT OF HER VIRGINITY WHICH GOD HAD SO METICULOUSLY PREPARED FOR HER IN THE CONCEPTION OF HIS WORD INCARNATE.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO ST. JOSEPH. Knowing full well that Mary had given birth to the Word Incarnate, and that her Son was the second person of the Holy Trinity, the Son of GOD, he must have been awestruck by the event. He knew that just by her being the one chosen (Luke 1:27-33), and by an act of GOD, in protecting her virginity (Luke 1:34-38), that she was special, and by the special graces given to her, elevated her far above any other woman. After all what could possibly follow the honor and graces given her by the Holy Spirit? The Holy Spirit is her spouse and St. Joseph knew it when he was informed by the Angel in a dream (Matthew 1:20). Would any sane man be so vain as to father mere human children with her? The idea of the spouse of the Holy Spirit becoming a mother to one not by the Holy Spirit, would have been repulsive, and would have had all the ingredients of sacrilege to him.

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The Protestant Reformer Ulrich Zwingli had this to say:
"It was not enough that the conception of Jesus take place without a male role, for if a woman who had previously known a man had conceived him even through the Holy Spirit, 'who would ever have believed that the child that was born was of the Holy Spirit? For nature knows no birth that is not besmirched with stain.' For the same reason she had to be ever a virgin, she who bore the one in whom there could not be even the least suspicion of blemish. For the birth of Jesus to be absolutely pure of every stain, Mary herself had to be free of any pollution of normal child-bearing..." Zwingli

Why do his followers deny his words today?

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There is absolutely nothing in Scripture which says that Mary had other children. Those who say she did, are committing calumny and slander, and are offending the Holy Trinity and the Holy Family. They are playing 'You Bet Your Soul'. Is it worth it? When they meet Jesus Christ face to face one day, how are they going to explain to Him, why they slandered His mother?
What will they say to Him then?

Deja vu

This weird thing happened last week when I went for BBQ to my dad friend's house. I arrived there early and I just tried to make myself useful so I helped my dad's friend,Ronny to grill the meat while the rest of my family helping him by arranging the table and chairs, etc. Since Ronny and I grilled the meat in the backyard, I didn't get a chance to see whether the guest had all arrived or not. The moment, I and Ronny brought in the grilled meat, I could see every single guest that had arrived and someone caught my eyes. That someone was a girl that kept on appearing in my dream since last January. Not only that I felt like I had already seen this moment and experienced this situation previously...the smell of the grilled meat, the room, every single guest that standing from left to right, their faces and the girl... they're very familiar to me. After I got my grilled meat, I looked for a place for me to eat and friends to talk with. Again my eyes caught this particular girl. She was not so beautiful and she was just as pretty as the girls in that party. But I didn't know why I just approached her and actually dare my self to talked to her. I found it that she could speak in Indonesian language and the way she speaked remind me of Cinta Laura haha. I was so nervous to talk to her till I asked her name in the last of our conversation, damn! She had a nice personality and the longer I looked at her she became cuter =P The worst part of that day was I forgot to ask her number AARRGGGHHH!! And on the way home, I kept on asking my dad, had we ever met that girl's family? Because I felt like I had seen her and her family before. In the car, I kept on thinking where I saw this girl and then I realized I had seen that girl on my dream and the party too. And these kind of things happen to me not only once but for a few times. I could dream about my future like something that going to happen to me in the future but normally I would realize it after I've gone through that moment but this time was different because the moment I stepped into the room with the grilled meat, I knew I had experienced that situation previously while this particular girl kept on appearing in my dream since last January doesn't appear in my dream anymore. I don't know what God tries to say in my dream but I believe He has a great plan for me ahead hehe

These're my ways to be a hero

Here are some ways you can be a hero:

1. Help older people around the neighborhood- clean up the leaves for them or just help them walk down the stairs or help them cross the street.

2. Help tutor someone that is having trouble in school like tell them what to do on a math problem.

3. Help keep the environment in a good shape by picking up trash or planting a tree.

4. Do something that you don't really want to do to make a person happy like helping your parents with the cooking or cleaning

5. Volunteer your time at library or church.

What does it mean to be a hero?

What does it mean to be a hero?

1. A hero is someone who helps other people or helps to make other people's lives better.

2. A hero is a person who tries to make the world a better place.

3. A hero is a person who does something that is more than what is expected.

4. A hero is someone that does something for the benefit of others.

5. A hero is a person that doesn't want to be a hero just to be famous.

End of the Moonlight

End of the Moonlight

by Forte Escape

Like the sea under the last falling sun
My awareness calmly in your eyes
Like the sky always be there for rising blue
If you see the moon in my life
I can fill the sky with your light, all night

Until the end of time

Higher and higher you can catch my love
Show me love, catch my love, always be my life
Can't you be reflactions in my eye

A few years ago poem

Be who u want me to be
by A.G.K.H.

Forgive me, I cant see the point of your anger
Nor I can read & understand what's in your heart

Forgive me, I've intruded your lives
And tried to find a room in your heart

I know I can never be a guy who you want me to be
But as long as I'm still breathing, I'll keep trying

I know it's him, a guy who's perfect to you
But as long as I'm alive, I'll keep trying

I know it's him that you want
But as long as I don't stop dreaming, hoping and believing
I'll keep trying to be who you want me to be

Gratitude

Night is really the best time to be a peaceful, to wonder on things, to appreciate life, and to thank the Lord for all the blessings. Roman Catholic teachings encourage us to give thanks to the Lord for everything He has done for us and for everything He has given us. I wanna tell you guys that there's a benefit by giving thanks to God. As we express gratitude for what we have, we feel richer. So for the people who always feel lonely, you don't feel lonely alone because there'll be a bunch of people out there who feel alone. You see you're the only one hehe. You just need to focus on what God has given to you in your life and be grateful for that and don't let one bitterness ruins everything in your life. Remember, God provides nuts but He does not crack them. I wanna challenge you guys, Can you show me one happy ungrateful person?! ^^

Is this how the world rewards us??

I've told you guys before that the world rewards effort, not excuses and your attitude determines your altitude. Now I start to think that actually the world rewards our skills, knowledge, and appearance. Look at this way, for the beauty we have Miss Universe. Certain people could only get into certain job according to their skills. For example, a soccer player like Kaka, he could play for AC Milan because of his skill & his salary could make you jealous and then people know him as one of the best player in the world, he's popular. Then you will start to ask, "Why he is so lucky?" haha. Another example, for the people who are good at music, we have Grammy Award. For the scientist they could win a noble prize. We need to put in a lot of effort to develop our skill and knowledge so others can recognise us and reward us accordigly. You can see people who are living on earth judge people by their skill, appearance, and knowledge. Then is there someone who will reward our attitude? On earth probably no one will reward our attitude but in Heaven, He would reward our attitude. Lord be with you ^^

BGR (Boy&Girl Relationship) Problem

Well I just wanna share with you what's on my mind this afternoon hehe
I've heard a hundred stories about my friends problems and the most common problems are about they relationship with opposite sex. Sometimes I just don't get it why they've to fight and finally end their relationship. Actually, in my opinion, it's good to have a best friend who could be trusted.

For example, Mary just broke up with his boy friend, Jim. She told me that she tired to fight with him every single day and she asked me how to overcome this, how to quit from this current situation. She hate to be in this kind of situation with him.

To be honest with her, hating things is a bad idea because somehow you'll be connected to it and you cannot even stop to think and worry about it. So my solution is she needs to stop hating this current situation and learns how to accept it. In this case acceptance means to understand.
Overcome what you hate by accepting it

I provide her with two solutions
The first one is if there's something in your life you don't want it, you need to stop worrying and talking about it because the energy you put into it keeps it alive. For example, Jim meets you for an argument & you refuse to fight, what will happen? He can't argue by himself, right? WHEN YOU LET GO OF THINGS, THEY LET GO OF YOU. Probably this solution could lead you to end your relationship with him because practically you just ignore him and this problems will pass.

The second solution, I've heard about how nice he was so you can list all the good things he has done for you and list all the bad things too. Then I'm sure you can tell me the different between the two lists. The list which contains a bad stuff about him would be shorter. You would realize just because of this short list you have forgotten whatever nice things he has done for you. That's ridiculous. Focus on all the things you adore about him.

A hero

In my opinion, I think a hero is someone you can look up to. Someone who has a solid character and who others could love to be. A hero could be very brave and willing to put their life aside for another's happiness. A hero could be anybody, anybody who can make someone's day. They're able to understand you and willing to listen to your miseries. They offer you advise and frankly tell you that they don't know how to help. A hero is someone who still stands by your side when other people turn their back against you. Someone who is willing to help fight your battles and they're able to make you feel safe, secure and comfortable even in the middle of wars. A hero is someone who lend you their shoulder when you're sad and when you cry. Just by being around them you could find peace and love. They could make you smile without saying any words. By the way a hero doesn't need to have super humanpower, they don't have to be able to fly like a superman or run in the speed of light. A hero can be any sex and race and they don't have to be human, they could be animal too. They don't have to be good in martial art and they don't even have to be rich, handsome or beautiful. In addition, they don't need to use or show off their advanced gadgets. A hero doesn't need to be good at everything but they help you to learn towards your future.

I've seen regular people do extraordinary things
I've seen you help each other up after you've been knocked down
I've seen people stand together when times are tough &
I've seen the smallest act make the biggest change
My parents have helped me to realize
one person can make a difference in the lives of others
They said,"Have faith in yourself and you will find hope in each other"
Remember, it's not the mask that makes the hero
It's about the choices they make and the desire to do what's right
I've seen that desire in my parents
It inspired me to promise I would do everything in my power to protect
the people that I love and care about
We have to keep fighting to make the world a better place.
A Hero is anybody, and everybody,
Everyone is someone’s Hero,
And everybody has a Hero.
Be heroes I know you are

Good Night

Night is the best time to be a peaceful, to wonder on things, to appreciate life, and to thank the Lord for all the blessings

My family is my life

Missing you guys is my “HOBBY”
Care for you guys is my “JOB”
Make you guys happy is my “DREAM”
Pray for you guys is my “DUTY”

&

To keep family relationship strong with you guys
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is my “CHOICE”

Destiny & Fate

I have a friend called Jason(not his real name) and his father is a bad person. He like to drink, beat him for no reason, comparing his own son with others, discourage his son instead of supporting him, not to let him go to church and someday he asked his son to steal!! His dad's a criminal and one day Jason told me he feared that the same fate awaited him. Have you ever heard this 'the apple doesn't fall far from the tree?' He scared that someday he would become just like his dad and he asked me how far he would fall from the tree? then I replied that I didn't know but I did know that you're different from your dad then we had an argument he said that his dad always taught him a bad thing and to judge people while my dad always taught me to love one another and not to judge people, we're totally different. I told him,"You do not even do whatever bad stuff your dad has taught you. In fact you're in full control of your life and do something to avoid it moreover we don't have one option only, we've many!"

I remember someone told to me that believing in fate instead of carving out your destiny can leave you powerless. I guess we can overcome our fate by taking charge of our life and meeting our goals. I think we need to start thinking about freedom to make choices despite what life hands us. Belief in fate makes us feel like we're a victim of our own nature. On the other hand, destiny is about making a choice to avoid fate. If I'm not mistaken Rabbi Shmuley said,"This freedom to choose is where humanity lies."

Jason promised to himself that he didn't want to become a criminal like his dad and I believe he chose concrete actions to break the cycle and to avoid fate that said would be likely for him.

Our own actions would bring closer to our goals and I think we can leave behind the idea that fate is real

The thing always happens that you believe in and the belief in a thing makes it happen. Destiny is the product of a belief that we are always in control of our actions. What we become will be determined by what we do! So this's why we can avoid fate which is results from a belief that human beings are scripted and have no choice.

An Active Mind

Damn!! For the whole night I was thinking about destiny and fate how these two are related and how these two are different. I've figured out the answer based on my experience so if I am free, I will share it with you. Maybe my thought could help you ^^

Btw I always thought that destiny's just another word for not having a choice but I was wrong. I was mistaken between these two; fate and destiny. Now I realize that destiny is all about making the choice to avoid fate. What we become will be determined by what we do!

Never ignore the SIGNAL!

We'll learn our biggest lessons when things get rough When have you made the most important decisions in your life? When you're on your knees after disaster!

In relationships, when do we usually tell each other how much we care? When the relationship is falling apart!

In school, when do we finally study hard? When we're about to fail!

In our life, when do we usually pray? When our life is falling apart!

After disaster, we'll normally say to ourselves, "I'm tired of being a failure, I've to do something to fix it." We usually notice 'disaster' were turning points.

When effective people ignore the warning signs and got smacked, they'll ask themselves, "How do I need to change?How can I be better than I am now?" While a loser will say,"Why does everything happen to me?"

We're creatures of habit. We keep doing what we're doing until we're forced to change.

I retained when I was in primary 5. I was a failure and got angry with myself for being stupid. So I chose to transfer to the other school and had a fresh start. For the first time I was studied hard to catch up with the rest and in the new school, guess what?! I became a top student there in the end of the year. I still have my problems in my studies and life but my life has a new meaning and excitement and all out of apparent disaster.

The universe is always nudging us with gentle signals. When we ignore it, it nudges us with a big hammer. Growth is most painful when we resist it

Destiny's just another word for not having a choice

My dad: Rald, have you ever wondered if you're destined to become someone great?
Me : You're talking to someone who's fought his destiny his entire life

Actually I dont know what destiny awaits me but somehow I feel like I've to fulfill it
Destiny's just another word for not having a choice

What You Feel

What you feel
by Chris Levy

Time and space,
There’s a lonely place,
There’s no sound,
Just a heart that pounds,
Life’s unknown, where’s the way back home?
In my mind, there’s a silent cry.

What you feel, what you know,
You’re not in control,
If you just let it go,
There’s a piece you’ll know.

Got to be,
Something bigger than me,
How to find,
Just some peace of mind?
When in sight, part of you gives light.
In my mind, the same tape rewinds.

What you feel, what you know,
You’re not in control,
If you just let it go,
There’s a piece you’ll know.

My Sunset

Sunset
by A.G.K.H.

Do you ever watch the sunset?
And just stand and think about things
You'll fall deeper into your thoughts
Because it's so peaceful at sunset

As the suns dips low in the sky
It could clam you inner self a bit
They show you all dreams to be met
They could inspire you

Sunset beauty makes you feel strong
It reminds you how powerful you are
Makes you feel capable and strong
Giving you a new hope and strength

At sunset you'll find peace
There's where all your fears cease
It seems all your fears are quelled
to see a sight so extraordinary

The serenity gives you a chance
A chance for you to reflect
Life can be overwhelming at times
But your life has meanings after all

Run Away

RunAway
by A.G.K.H.

I wanna run away
Running from the present
Running from the past
Running from my destiny
Running from the the pain
Running from the fears
Running from the truth
But I cant because
I dont wanna say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
I wanna know the answer
I wanna overcome the fears
I wanna erase the pain
I wanna accept my destiny
I wanna open up my mind
Why cant I have both run away
and solve everything??

Thinking of you at night
by A.G.K.H.

In this night, rain falls
I walk in the field and the rain clatters
I see you and You're standing there
NO, maybe that's my imagination
Tonight you're in my mind and
I think about the days that we had
You're lying in the field with me
And dew fell on your forehead
Then you smiled at me under a serene weather
A thunder roars and brings me back to reality
and then I wonder
if only, that last day I had shown you and told you
I love you, my love story would be different
That last day I was too timid to speak!
I always dream that I could go back there and fix it
If only you know every moment in time
Nothing goes in my heart
Maybe someday I'll have a chance to tell you
How I want to be with you once more
You always be the one in my life and you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Please come into my life again
We will take a walk again every evening
and everything will be as before
You'll frighten away the uneasy nights

A Transforming Experience

Damn!! It has been a long time haha

After approximately 20hours flight, finally reached Dallas phew... for 5 minute I couldnt even move my legs haha Could you imagine 20hours flight in economic class?? :P
Then the whole family stucked in custom & immigration for 5hours because we didnt report our money properly and worse come to worse they thought that we're smuggling grrrr and confiscated our cash. After that they asked us to wait for the letter to come that would tell us what to do.
We learned our first lesson WHEN YOU COME TO USA, ALWAYS DECLARE YOUR MONEY.

The next problem was that we couldnt call my mom friend who was supposed to meet us in the airport. She didnt know that we got a problem and stucked in the custom & immigration for 5hours, she would probably go home already instead of waiting for us in the airport. I knew that God wasnt that cruel to His follower haha luckly my mom friend still waiting for us ^^

So she took us around while we told her what happened in the airport. She brought us to our new home( is actually just a 2rooms apartment) and then she took us for shopping. My mom told me she's the one who would bring us around and help us here. Everyday she came and became our driver actually haha

Our first moved was opened a bank account and transfered our money into our new account. Next, trying to get a driving license since it's hard to move around without a car here, we need to get a driving license no matter what.... then I and my bro tried to take the test and one of the officer didnt allow me to take the test while the other officer let my bro took the test and he managed to past the written test...congrats to my bro haha the reason they didnt allow me to take the test was because I didnt have my Social Security Number(SSN) grrrrr

Next movement was going to immigration and got our SSN. The officer which's a black man told us to wait for 21days since our SSN was in process...disappointed but at least we knew that our SSN in process. Then we called custom & immigration to clear our case and when we got the letter. They told me they never confiscated any money FUCK THEM!! NEVER?! so we got confuse then we went there but they could do anything till we got the letter grrrrrrrrrrrr I hate waiting haha

My mom friend brought us to church and asked us to join the activity there and meeting a new friend haha but something that I dont like about being in Christian Church is that they do mention a few times a bad thing about Catholic. Another miracle happened hansel's uncle's here in irving wkwk he helped us alot here and I met hansel's cousins, believe it of not they're totally different from Hansel, they're so cute ^^

Something that make me feel really close to God is Eucharist while Protestant doesnt has Eucharist.Moreover, I do really respect Mother Mary while protestant think that we're worshipping her grrrr dumb ass...

Anyway, since we knew hansel's uncle( om Andre) and he's roman catholic, we start to go to Catholic church and more active in the church hehe hmmm what's next??
Oh ya, this time we tried our luck again, we went to take a driving test again and this time it worked and I passed the test BUT again another officer caught us then they made us fail the test and I complained to her why in that time one of the officer let my friend who didnt has SSN sat for the test and got his notification that he passed the written test while you made me fail??
She apologized to me but we need to stick to the rule grrrrr too bad

Hmmmm what else.... oh ya, for a few times we delayed the test because nobody took us there. Fucking annoying because I hate preparing myself for a test and I did it for a few times whick means I studies the same thing over and over and the more irritating was that I failed one of the english test. English test got 3 section such as reading, sentence and essay. Although I scored quite well for my essay and just nicely passed my reading, the advisor still asked me to join development class for english grrrr I dont need that and I decided to take a retest!

A damn extreme weather made me fall sick for 3days grrrrr and because of that I need to stay on my bed the whole fucking day and luckly my dad woke me up and asked me to help him in writing his resume wkwk so got to use computer this afternoon.

Taking a chance, letting you inside??

Wondering at night
by A.G.K.H

I find it very hard to sleep lately
Because recently I always wanna see you
Would you mind just to come over here?
Because I dont wanna see you on my dream

I'm afraid to close my eyes
Because all I can see is your smile
Would you mind to tell me how to overcome this?
Because all I wanna see is your smile from the real you

I find it very hard to sleep at night
Because I have a tons of probelms
Would you mind to lend me your hand?
Because only you can calm the storm in my head

I'm taking a chance, letting you inside
Because I'm feeling right where I belong
Would you mind to come to my life?
Because I'm falling even more in love with you

I had everything in Indonesia like house, friends, my soccer ball, a place that I like to visit, etc. Well then I and my family migrated to USA and came out from our comfort zone in order to have a better life. In split second I lost all of it my friends, my house, my soccer ball, my toys and then I start to think that nothing last forever. So I need to be more thankful with what I've in the moment and make use full of it. For a split second I feel like on top of the world because I've found my happiness and suddenly it's all gone haha Btw if I've made any mistakes and unitentionally hurt you, pls forgive me^^

I'm in Korea right now. Nothing much to tell about this airport but the airport here's damn clean. I wanna tell you more about yesterday. The people that I love and care're gathering in CitraLand. It was a miracle for me because I could see all of them before I left. A clown always makes people around him happy. He creates jokes and do a stupid thing to make people laugh. Basically to make people feel happy haha but yesterday a miracle happened because the clown's crying. He had to go leave his friends and beloved one to a better place. This clown made a promise someday he'll be back to visit his friends

Cannon Power shot SX101s

As you know that my camera, NIKON5700 was broken a week ago. It made me sad because I've been using it for 6 years and I love my camera. Moreover, My camera's one of my best friends. I always took at least one picture one day before it's broken. Now it's gone forever....
But today I bought a new camera and it's great. I don't like lithium battery so I search a decent camera with AA battery and I found Cannon Power shot SX101s. I've seen all the spec so I decided to buy it. Now I've a great weapon in my hand and I'm gonna learn how to use it as soon as possible. I can't wait to take a picture of beautiful scenery around me hehehe