Confuse

I didn't know why recently I like to watch sunset or floating in the swimming pool wondering whether what I did was wrong or right. What if it was wrong? What would it lead me to? Seriously not going to school for several month really drove me nuts, sometimes I lost track of time or wondering did I do something productive to achieve my goal recently? then I asked myself what's my goal?? I even forgot my own goal, OMG! When I was floating in the swimming pool I saw million of stars up there & I realized that they're in complete order and rotated in their own orbit. At least they're on their track and I started to ask myself 'Am I in the right track?' what if I was not. God completely controlled the starts, the sky, the suns, the birds and everything. The birds would sing every morning like it's the reason they're here on earth, their purpose is to sing glorying His name. What about my purpose? Why am I here?

Lately I was questioning myself how do I became happy? what's the important factor of being happy? I guess the answer is FREEDOM. When you're not in control of yourself, you will find it really hard to be happy, for examples, money controls you. You will suffer for that you will calculate every penny come out from your wallet and you work like crazy to get a lot of money and you never satisfy with it. Another good example, when your neighbour has a new car, you will also buy a new car. You would be blinded by your desire and make you not happy because you don't have a freedom to make choices all you know is you need to keep up with your neighbour's assets. Most people limit themselves by making this kind of statement by reaching this or get this or achieve this, I would be happy. WRONG! What're you goin to do next? Are you going to be happy forever by getting that? then next month you're unhappy again. Self mastery is a really hard thing to practice, even sometimes I find it very annoying to practice it.I just keep telling myself that I want peace and happiness so I don't want to be controlled by my passion and desire haha

Taylor Swift : Untouchable

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why

I'm caught up in you
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway

But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh

In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Oh, oh
I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, oh

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Mary: Virgin and Ever Virgin

Last Saturday when I was in LIC(it's not a catholic church), I found that they're insulting Mother Mary. So I did some research to strengthen my belief towards Mary this morning and I found tons of articles about Perpetual Virginity of Mary. And I'll post here one of the articles which is very easy to understand by non-catholic people.

Before writing this file I wondered, "Why would anyone be interested in the virginity of a little Jewish girl who lived 2000 years ago?" Can you think of another person in history that is so controversial regarding this subject?
I couldn't.
Then the answer came to me...
It is either because the persons questioning Blessed Mary's virginity, have no love for GOD and wish to hurt Him in any way they can, or it is because the Catholic Church teaches the perpetual virginity of Mary and this is just another way to put down the Church which Jesus Christ founded.

While dying on the cross, Jesus gave his mother to St. John (John 19:27). Why didn't He give her to one of her other children (as Protestants insist she had) instead? Jewish law would have demanded it. It is simply because Mary had no other children for Him to do so.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS
A DIRECT INSULT TO GOD THE FATHER, WHO SENT HIS ANGEL, GABRIEL, TO PROCLAIM TO HER, AND ONLY TO HER, "HAIL, FULL OF GRACE, THE LORD IS WITH THEE. BLESSED ART THOU AMONG WOMEN".

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS
A DIRECT INSULT TO THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO SANCTIFIED HER AS HIS SPOUSE, AND TO BE THE VESSEL TO CARRY THE WORD INCARNATE, THE SECOND PERSON OF THE HOLY TRINITY.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO JESUS CHRIST, WHO WAS THE ONLY BEGOTTEN OF HIS MOTHER, AS HE HIMSELF WAS THE ONLY BEGOTTEN OF HIS FATHER IN HEAVEN.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO THE BLESSED VIRGIN MARY, WHO WOULD HAVE TO HAVE CARRIED THE GUILT OF INGRATITUDE TO GOD FOREVER, IF SHE HAD DISCARDED THE PRECIOUS GIFT OF HER VIRGINITY WHICH GOD HAD SO METICULOUSLY PREPARED FOR HER IN THE CONCEPTION OF HIS WORD INCARNATE.

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FOR ANYONE TO SAY THAT MARY HAD OTHER CHILDREN IS AN INSULT TO ST. JOSEPH. Knowing full well that Mary had given birth to the Word Incarnate, and that her Son was the second person of the Holy Trinity, the Son of GOD, he must have been awestruck by the event. He knew that just by her being the one chosen (Luke 1:27-33), and by an act of GOD, in protecting her virginity (Luke 1:34-38), that she was special, and by the special graces given to her, elevated her far above any other woman. After all what could possibly follow the honor and graces given her by the Holy Spirit? The Holy Spirit is her spouse and St. Joseph knew it when he was informed by the Angel in a dream (Matthew 1:20). Would any sane man be so vain as to father mere human children with her? The idea of the spouse of the Holy Spirit becoming a mother to one not by the Holy Spirit, would have been repulsive, and would have had all the ingredients of sacrilege to him.

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The Protestant Reformer Ulrich Zwingli had this to say:
"It was not enough that the conception of Jesus take place without a male role, for if a woman who had previously known a man had conceived him even through the Holy Spirit, 'who would ever have believed that the child that was born was of the Holy Spirit? For nature knows no birth that is not besmirched with stain.' For the same reason she had to be ever a virgin, she who bore the one in whom there could not be even the least suspicion of blemish. For the birth of Jesus to be absolutely pure of every stain, Mary herself had to be free of any pollution of normal child-bearing..." Zwingli

Why do his followers deny his words today?

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There is absolutely nothing in Scripture which says that Mary had other children. Those who say she did, are committing calumny and slander, and are offending the Holy Trinity and the Holy Family. They are playing 'You Bet Your Soul'. Is it worth it? When they meet Jesus Christ face to face one day, how are they going to explain to Him, why they slandered His mother?
What will they say to Him then?

Deja vu

This weird thing happened last week when I went for BBQ to my dad friend's house. I arrived there early and I just tried to make myself useful so I helped my dad's friend,Ronny to grill the meat while the rest of my family helping him by arranging the table and chairs, etc. Since Ronny and I grilled the meat in the backyard, I didn't get a chance to see whether the guest had all arrived or not. The moment, I and Ronny brought in the grilled meat, I could see every single guest that had arrived and someone caught my eyes. That someone was a girl that kept on appearing in my dream since last January. Not only that I felt like I had already seen this moment and experienced this situation previously...the smell of the grilled meat, the room, every single guest that standing from left to right, their faces and the girl... they're very familiar to me. After I got my grilled meat, I looked for a place for me to eat and friends to talk with. Again my eyes caught this particular girl. She was not so beautiful and she was just as pretty as the girls in that party. But I didn't know why I just approached her and actually dare my self to talked to her. I found it that she could speak in Indonesian language and the way she speaked remind me of Cinta Laura haha. I was so nervous to talk to her till I asked her name in the last of our conversation, damn! She had a nice personality and the longer I looked at her she became cuter =P The worst part of that day was I forgot to ask her number AARRGGGHHH!! And on the way home, I kept on asking my dad, had we ever met that girl's family? Because I felt like I had seen her and her family before. In the car, I kept on thinking where I saw this girl and then I realized I had seen that girl on my dream and the party too. And these kind of things happen to me not only once but for a few times. I could dream about my future like something that going to happen to me in the future but normally I would realize it after I've gone through that moment but this time was different because the moment I stepped into the room with the grilled meat, I knew I had experienced that situation previously while this particular girl kept on appearing in my dream since last January doesn't appear in my dream anymore. I don't know what God tries to say in my dream but I believe He has a great plan for me ahead hehe

These're my ways to be a hero

Here are some ways you can be a hero:

1. Help older people around the neighborhood- clean up the leaves for them or just help them walk down the stairs or help them cross the street.

2. Help tutor someone that is having trouble in school like tell them what to do on a math problem.

3. Help keep the environment in a good shape by picking up trash or planting a tree.

4. Do something that you don't really want to do to make a person happy like helping your parents with the cooking or cleaning

5. Volunteer your time at library or church.

What does it mean to be a hero?

What does it mean to be a hero?

1. A hero is someone who helps other people or helps to make other people's lives better.

2. A hero is a person who tries to make the world a better place.

3. A hero is a person who does something that is more than what is expected.

4. A hero is someone that does something for the benefit of others.

5. A hero is a person that doesn't want to be a hero just to be famous.

End of the Moonlight

End of the Moonlight

by Forte Escape

Like the sea under the last falling sun
My awareness calmly in your eyes
Like the sky always be there for rising blue
If you see the moon in my life
I can fill the sky with your light, all night

Until the end of time

Higher and higher you can catch my love
Show me love, catch my love, always be my life
Can't you be reflactions in my eye

A few years ago poem

Be who u want me to be
by A.G.K.H.

Forgive me, I cant see the point of your anger
Nor I can read & understand what's in your heart

Forgive me, I've intruded your lives
And tried to find a room in your heart

I know I can never be a guy who you want me to be
But as long as I'm still breathing, I'll keep trying

I know it's him, a guy who's perfect to you
But as long as I'm alive, I'll keep trying

I know it's him that you want
But as long as I don't stop dreaming, hoping and believing
I'll keep trying to be who you want me to be

Gratitude

Night is really the best time to be a peaceful, to wonder on things, to appreciate life, and to thank the Lord for all the blessings. Roman Catholic teachings encourage us to give thanks to the Lord for everything He has done for us and for everything He has given us. I wanna tell you guys that there's a benefit by giving thanks to God. As we express gratitude for what we have, we feel richer. So for the people who always feel lonely, you don't feel lonely alone because there'll be a bunch of people out there who feel alone. You see you're the only one hehe. You just need to focus on what God has given to you in your life and be grateful for that and don't let one bitterness ruins everything in your life. Remember, God provides nuts but He does not crack them. I wanna challenge you guys, Can you show me one happy ungrateful person?! ^^

Is this how the world rewards us??

I've told you guys before that the world rewards effort, not excuses and your attitude determines your altitude. Now I start to think that actually the world rewards our skills, knowledge, and appearance. Look at this way, for the beauty we have Miss Universe. Certain people could only get into certain job according to their skills. For example, a soccer player like Kaka, he could play for AC Milan because of his skill & his salary could make you jealous and then people know him as one of the best player in the world, he's popular. Then you will start to ask, "Why he is so lucky?" haha. Another example, for the people who are good at music, we have Grammy Award. For the scientist they could win a noble prize. We need to put in a lot of effort to develop our skill and knowledge so others can recognise us and reward us accordigly. You can see people who are living on earth judge people by their skill, appearance, and knowledge. Then is there someone who will reward our attitude? On earth probably no one will reward our attitude but in Heaven, He would reward our attitude. Lord be with you ^^

BGR (Boy&Girl Relationship) Problem

Well I just wanna share with you what's on my mind this afternoon hehe
I've heard a hundred stories about my friends problems and the most common problems are about they relationship with opposite sex. Sometimes I just don't get it why they've to fight and finally end their relationship. Actually, in my opinion, it's good to have a best friend who could be trusted.

For example, Mary just broke up with his boy friend, Jim. She told me that she tired to fight with him every single day and she asked me how to overcome this, how to quit from this current situation. She hate to be in this kind of situation with him.

To be honest with her, hating things is a bad idea because somehow you'll be connected to it and you cannot even stop to think and worry about it. So my solution is she needs to stop hating this current situation and learns how to accept it. In this case acceptance means to understand.
Overcome what you hate by accepting it

I provide her with two solutions
The first one is if there's something in your life you don't want it, you need to stop worrying and talking about it because the energy you put into it keeps it alive. For example, Jim meets you for an argument & you refuse to fight, what will happen? He can't argue by himself, right? WHEN YOU LET GO OF THINGS, THEY LET GO OF YOU. Probably this solution could lead you to end your relationship with him because practically you just ignore him and this problems will pass.

The second solution, I've heard about how nice he was so you can list all the good things he has done for you and list all the bad things too. Then I'm sure you can tell me the different between the two lists. The list which contains a bad stuff about him would be shorter. You would realize just because of this short list you have forgotten whatever nice things he has done for you. That's ridiculous. Focus on all the things you adore about him.

A hero

In my opinion, I think a hero is someone you can look up to. Someone who has a solid character and who others could love to be. A hero could be very brave and willing to put their life aside for another's happiness. A hero could be anybody, anybody who can make someone's day. They're able to understand you and willing to listen to your miseries. They offer you advise and frankly tell you that they don't know how to help. A hero is someone who still stands by your side when other people turn their back against you. Someone who is willing to help fight your battles and they're able to make you feel safe, secure and comfortable even in the middle of wars. A hero is someone who lend you their shoulder when you're sad and when you cry. Just by being around them you could find peace and love. They could make you smile without saying any words. By the way a hero doesn't need to have super humanpower, they don't have to be able to fly like a superman or run in the speed of light. A hero can be any sex and race and they don't have to be human, they could be animal too. They don't have to be good in martial art and they don't even have to be rich, handsome or beautiful. In addition, they don't need to use or show off their advanced gadgets. A hero doesn't need to be good at everything but they help you to learn towards your future.

I've seen regular people do extraordinary things
I've seen you help each other up after you've been knocked down
I've seen people stand together when times are tough &
I've seen the smallest act make the biggest change
My parents have helped me to realize
one person can make a difference in the lives of others
They said,"Have faith in yourself and you will find hope in each other"
Remember, it's not the mask that makes the hero
It's about the choices they make and the desire to do what's right
I've seen that desire in my parents
It inspired me to promise I would do everything in my power to protect
the people that I love and care about
We have to keep fighting to make the world a better place.
A Hero is anybody, and everybody,
Everyone is someone’s Hero,
And everybody has a Hero.
Be heroes I know you are

Good Night

Night is the best time to be a peaceful, to wonder on things, to appreciate life, and to thank the Lord for all the blessings