My family is my life

Missing you guys is my “HOBBY”
Care for you guys is my “JOB”
Make you guys happy is my “DREAM”
Pray for you guys is my “DUTY”

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To keep family relationship strong with you guys
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is my “CHOICE”

Destiny & Fate

I have a friend called Jason(not his real name) and his father is a bad person. He like to drink, beat him for no reason, comparing his own son with others, discourage his son instead of supporting him, not to let him go to church and someday he asked his son to steal!! His dad's a criminal and one day Jason told me he feared that the same fate awaited him. Have you ever heard this 'the apple doesn't fall far from the tree?' He scared that someday he would become just like his dad and he asked me how far he would fall from the tree? then I replied that I didn't know but I did know that you're different from your dad then we had an argument he said that his dad always taught him a bad thing and to judge people while my dad always taught me to love one another and not to judge people, we're totally different. I told him,"You do not even do whatever bad stuff your dad has taught you. In fact you're in full control of your life and do something to avoid it moreover we don't have one option only, we've many!"

I remember someone told to me that believing in fate instead of carving out your destiny can leave you powerless. I guess we can overcome our fate by taking charge of our life and meeting our goals. I think we need to start thinking about freedom to make choices despite what life hands us. Belief in fate makes us feel like we're a victim of our own nature. On the other hand, destiny is about making a choice to avoid fate. If I'm not mistaken Rabbi Shmuley said,"This freedom to choose is where humanity lies."

Jason promised to himself that he didn't want to become a criminal like his dad and I believe he chose concrete actions to break the cycle and to avoid fate that said would be likely for him.

Our own actions would bring closer to our goals and I think we can leave behind the idea that fate is real

The thing always happens that you believe in and the belief in a thing makes it happen. Destiny is the product of a belief that we are always in control of our actions. What we become will be determined by what we do! So this's why we can avoid fate which is results from a belief that human beings are scripted and have no choice.

An Active Mind

Damn!! For the whole night I was thinking about destiny and fate how these two are related and how these two are different. I've figured out the answer based on my experience so if I am free, I will share it with you. Maybe my thought could help you ^^

Btw I always thought that destiny's just another word for not having a choice but I was wrong. I was mistaken between these two; fate and destiny. Now I realize that destiny is all about making the choice to avoid fate. What we become will be determined by what we do!

Never ignore the SIGNAL!

We'll learn our biggest lessons when things get rough When have you made the most important decisions in your life? When you're on your knees after disaster!

In relationships, when do we usually tell each other how much we care? When the relationship is falling apart!

In school, when do we finally study hard? When we're about to fail!

In our life, when do we usually pray? When our life is falling apart!

After disaster, we'll normally say to ourselves, "I'm tired of being a failure, I've to do something to fix it." We usually notice 'disaster' were turning points.

When effective people ignore the warning signs and got smacked, they'll ask themselves, "How do I need to change?How can I be better than I am now?" While a loser will say,"Why does everything happen to me?"

We're creatures of habit. We keep doing what we're doing until we're forced to change.

I retained when I was in primary 5. I was a failure and got angry with myself for being stupid. So I chose to transfer to the other school and had a fresh start. For the first time I was studied hard to catch up with the rest and in the new school, guess what?! I became a top student there in the end of the year. I still have my problems in my studies and life but my life has a new meaning and excitement and all out of apparent disaster.

The universe is always nudging us with gentle signals. When we ignore it, it nudges us with a big hammer. Growth is most painful when we resist it

Destiny's just another word for not having a choice

My dad: Rald, have you ever wondered if you're destined to become someone great?
Me : You're talking to someone who's fought his destiny his entire life

Actually I dont know what destiny awaits me but somehow I feel like I've to fulfill it
Destiny's just another word for not having a choice

What You Feel

What you feel
by Chris Levy

Time and space,
There’s a lonely place,
There’s no sound,
Just a heart that pounds,
Life’s unknown, where’s the way back home?
In my mind, there’s a silent cry.

What you feel, what you know,
You’re not in control,
If you just let it go,
There’s a piece you’ll know.

Got to be,
Something bigger than me,
How to find,
Just some peace of mind?
When in sight, part of you gives light.
In my mind, the same tape rewinds.

What you feel, what you know,
You’re not in control,
If you just let it go,
There’s a piece you’ll know.

My Sunset

Sunset
by A.G.K.H.

Do you ever watch the sunset?
And just stand and think about things
You'll fall deeper into your thoughts
Because it's so peaceful at sunset

As the suns dips low in the sky
It could clam you inner self a bit
They show you all dreams to be met
They could inspire you

Sunset beauty makes you feel strong
It reminds you how powerful you are
Makes you feel capable and strong
Giving you a new hope and strength

At sunset you'll find peace
There's where all your fears cease
It seems all your fears are quelled
to see a sight so extraordinary

The serenity gives you a chance
A chance for you to reflect
Life can be overwhelming at times
But your life has meanings after all

Run Away

RunAway
by A.G.K.H.

I wanna run away
Running from the present
Running from the past
Running from my destiny
Running from the the pain
Running from the fears
Running from the truth
But I cant because
I dont wanna say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
I wanna know the answer
I wanna overcome the fears
I wanna erase the pain
I wanna accept my destiny
I wanna open up my mind
Why cant I have both run away
and solve everything??

Thinking of you at night
by A.G.K.H.

In this night, rain falls
I walk in the field and the rain clatters
I see you and You're standing there
NO, maybe that's my imagination
Tonight you're in my mind and
I think about the days that we had
You're lying in the field with me
And dew fell on your forehead
Then you smiled at me under a serene weather
A thunder roars and brings me back to reality
and then I wonder
if only, that last day I had shown you and told you
I love you, my love story would be different
That last day I was too timid to speak!
I always dream that I could go back there and fix it
If only you know every moment in time
Nothing goes in my heart
Maybe someday I'll have a chance to tell you
How I want to be with you once more
You always be the one in my life and you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Please come into my life again
We will take a walk again every evening
and everything will be as before
You'll frighten away the uneasy nights

A Transforming Experience

Damn!! It has been a long time haha

After approximately 20hours flight, finally reached Dallas phew... for 5 minute I couldnt even move my legs haha Could you imagine 20hours flight in economic class?? :P
Then the whole family stucked in custom & immigration for 5hours because we didnt report our money properly and worse come to worse they thought that we're smuggling grrrr and confiscated our cash. After that they asked us to wait for the letter to come that would tell us what to do.
We learned our first lesson WHEN YOU COME TO USA, ALWAYS DECLARE YOUR MONEY.

The next problem was that we couldnt call my mom friend who was supposed to meet us in the airport. She didnt know that we got a problem and stucked in the custom & immigration for 5hours, she would probably go home already instead of waiting for us in the airport. I knew that God wasnt that cruel to His follower haha luckly my mom friend still waiting for us ^^

So she took us around while we told her what happened in the airport. She brought us to our new home( is actually just a 2rooms apartment) and then she took us for shopping. My mom told me she's the one who would bring us around and help us here. Everyday she came and became our driver actually haha

Our first moved was opened a bank account and transfered our money into our new account. Next, trying to get a driving license since it's hard to move around without a car here, we need to get a driving license no matter what.... then I and my bro tried to take the test and one of the officer didnt allow me to take the test while the other officer let my bro took the test and he managed to past the written test...congrats to my bro haha the reason they didnt allow me to take the test was because I didnt have my Social Security Number(SSN) grrrrr

Next movement was going to immigration and got our SSN. The officer which's a black man told us to wait for 21days since our SSN was in process...disappointed but at least we knew that our SSN in process. Then we called custom & immigration to clear our case and when we got the letter. They told me they never confiscated any money FUCK THEM!! NEVER?! so we got confuse then we went there but they could do anything till we got the letter grrrrrrrrrrrr I hate waiting haha

My mom friend brought us to church and asked us to join the activity there and meeting a new friend haha but something that I dont like about being in Christian Church is that they do mention a few times a bad thing about Catholic. Another miracle happened hansel's uncle's here in irving wkwk he helped us alot here and I met hansel's cousins, believe it of not they're totally different from Hansel, they're so cute ^^

Something that make me feel really close to God is Eucharist while Protestant doesnt has Eucharist.Moreover, I do really respect Mother Mary while protestant think that we're worshipping her grrrr dumb ass...

Anyway, since we knew hansel's uncle( om Andre) and he's roman catholic, we start to go to Catholic church and more active in the church hehe hmmm what's next??
Oh ya, this time we tried our luck again, we went to take a driving test again and this time it worked and I passed the test BUT again another officer caught us then they made us fail the test and I complained to her why in that time one of the officer let my friend who didnt has SSN sat for the test and got his notification that he passed the written test while you made me fail??
She apologized to me but we need to stick to the rule grrrrr too bad

Hmmmm what else.... oh ya, for a few times we delayed the test because nobody took us there. Fucking annoying because I hate preparing myself for a test and I did it for a few times whick means I studies the same thing over and over and the more irritating was that I failed one of the english test. English test got 3 section such as reading, sentence and essay. Although I scored quite well for my essay and just nicely passed my reading, the advisor still asked me to join development class for english grrrr I dont need that and I decided to take a retest!

A damn extreme weather made me fall sick for 3days grrrrr and because of that I need to stay on my bed the whole fucking day and luckly my dad woke me up and asked me to help him in writing his resume wkwk so got to use computer this afternoon.

Taking a chance, letting you inside??

Wondering at night
by A.G.K.H

I find it very hard to sleep lately
Because recently I always wanna see you
Would you mind just to come over here?
Because I dont wanna see you on my dream

I'm afraid to close my eyes
Because all I can see is your smile
Would you mind to tell me how to overcome this?
Because all I wanna see is your smile from the real you

I find it very hard to sleep at night
Because I have a tons of probelms
Would you mind to lend me your hand?
Because only you can calm the storm in my head

I'm taking a chance, letting you inside
Because I'm feeling right where I belong
Would you mind to come to my life?
Because I'm falling even more in love with you

I had everything in Indonesia like house, friends, my soccer ball, a place that I like to visit, etc. Well then I and my family migrated to USA and came out from our comfort zone in order to have a better life. In split second I lost all of it my friends, my house, my soccer ball, my toys and then I start to think that nothing last forever. So I need to be more thankful with what I've in the moment and make use full of it. For a split second I feel like on top of the world because I've found my happiness and suddenly it's all gone haha Btw if I've made any mistakes and unitentionally hurt you, pls forgive me^^

I'm in Korea right now. Nothing much to tell about this airport but the airport here's damn clean. I wanna tell you more about yesterday. The people that I love and care're gathering in CitraLand. It was a miracle for me because I could see all of them before I left. A clown always makes people around him happy. He creates jokes and do a stupid thing to make people laugh. Basically to make people feel happy haha but yesterday a miracle happened because the clown's crying. He had to go leave his friends and beloved one to a better place. This clown made a promise someday he'll be back to visit his friends

Cannon Power shot SX101s

As you know that my camera, NIKON5700 was broken a week ago. It made me sad because I've been using it for 6 years and I love my camera. Moreover, My camera's one of my best friends. I always took at least one picture one day before it's broken. Now it's gone forever....
But today I bought a new camera and it's great. I don't like lithium battery so I search a decent camera with AA battery and I found Cannon Power shot SX101s. I've seen all the spec so I decided to buy it. Now I've a great weapon in my hand and I'm gonna learn how to use it as soon as possible. I can't wait to take a picture of beautiful scenery around me hehehe