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by A.G.K.H

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Yesterday was awesome because I watched two great movies in one day;Knowing and X-men Origins: Wolverine. To tell you the truth X-men Origins: Wolverine's far better than I expected while Knowing the ending's really suck! Moreover yesterday became more wonderful because of my friends' present. Thanks to Hansel, Hergine and my young bro!

Do I need to be strong or powerful enough to make people around me to be happy??

I always tell my friend I wanna to be strong to protect people around me and I don't want them to be sad or get hurt. In school I'm willing to teach my friends who need help in their studies. That's in School how about in the world outside the school. My uncle gave me a lot of stories and examples and he warned me to be more careful with what I want, to pay attention with the greed inside of me. My dad said that greed most often begins with the fear of not having enough or of not being important. If you're a good friend of mine, I'm sure I've told you this thousand times I want people to remember my name haha I want people to think that I'm an important person so they'll actually remember me. I'm such a bad ass who act like a good guy ckck!

I like to learn History or Social Studies because it teaches me more than just a history. For example, The Cold War between USA and Soviet Union was a classic example of how fear could lead these two powerful countries to an unending sense of insecurity of not being THE BEST! In my point of view of this war is that the more powerful we become, the more we worry about someone else becoming powerful

On This Night

On this night
by A.G.K.H

On this night I'm sitting on a rock
Wondering where my life will turn
I see your face under the moonlight
I say I'm glad with you today

She stands up
And She starts dancing
it's fun to watch her dancing
Because she's very gorgeous

Suddently She takes my hand
We dance together in the moonlight
It's like Heaven on Earth
She makes me feel complete

As she holds me close
She gives me her word of wisdom
And tells me not to worry
Everything will turn out alright

These days and these nights
I promise I'll always be there for her
I will never break her heart
My love and words will remain true

On this night, underneath the stars
She promises She'll love me forever
She tells me to enjoy my life
And enjoy this time being underneath the stars with her

Love and emotional attachment

Most of us engage in a desperate search for someone to love us, but we confuse the issue by saying that we need someone to love. We say we want someone to share with, someone we can love, but what we are really saying is that we need someone to love us, someone who will make us feel important and keep us from feeling lonely. This is not love, but emotional attachment, which leads us into dependency.

We believe that we need this person to be happy, to be content, to be fulfilled. So our loving becomes distorted by our emotional needs. When they don't love us back, we feel miserable and unloved. When they aren't around, we feel lonely. We all have a remarkable, unlimited capacity to love one another. There is a wide range of expression of our love, from brotherly and sisterly love to romantic, sexual love. But as long as we continue to confuse love and emotional attachment, we will continue to be lonely, even when we have someone to love.

Fight against Self-hatred

I'll help you guys fighting a monster called Self-hatred. Why do I call it a monster? it's because Self-hatred creates unhappiness and suffering. This monster seems to be so powerful that we feel helpless before him.

When this monster's inside of you, you will feel like you're the master of creating misery. You'll remember all the hurts, mistakes, and failures in our past. So you seldom live up to expectations, you're never quite good enough no matter how good you get and keep making the same old mistakes.

You suffer from guilt, continually find fault with yourselves, condemn yourselves for not living up to your own or someone's expectations like your parent, friends, etc. After so many failures, mistakes and broken dreams you actually begin to give up on yourselves and on life. Some of us become depressed and accepting whatever life gives as a cruel joke that we must endure while others will angry with themselves, become angry at the world. They become hostile, taking out their own misery on others.

This monster will affect your mind. He will lead you to further mistake, poor performance and unhappiness. For example when someone attacks you, actually you can block his attack but you just give up. You have no confident. You attack yourself in a way by giving up. When you attack yourself, there's no outcome but defeat. You can't win in a battle against yourself, you only create more conflict and suffering. Hence, you become depressed.

Eventually you'll start to punish yourselves for the mistakes you make & the expectations you fail to realize. You strengthen this monster by constantly reminding yourselves of your weaknesses and mistakes.

I'll tell you a secret to stop this monster. You can stop it by experiencing your own inner strength and beauty. You can't create self esteem by constantly telling yourself that you're a wonderful person.

Self esteem and self respect grow out of the experience of committed effort. Whether or not you succeed isn't as important to your self respect as when you know that you has given your best. If you continue to make the effort, if you continue to work with your resources, you'll eventually succeed.

When you give up on yourselves and become a victim, you deny yourself the power to grow and change. You stay stuck in your own ignorance. You refuse to make any effort. Mistakes are seen as a necessary part of learning, not reasons for punishment. Without effort, personal power remains undeveloped and unused and the outcome is self-hatred

S0m3T1m3S

Friends are sometimes boring, but enemies—never!
How far do you agree with this statement?

Alone

Alone, alone, all, all alone,
Alone on a wide wide sea!
And never an angel took pity on
My soul in agony...

The Story

The story started a year ago
I feel in love and you eventually became my everything
I had forgotten how to smile, how to laugh, how to be me
I had forgotten the sweet pleasure of a heart filled with glee.
I was intoxicated with life... study & study
Never stopping for fun... it just wasn't there you see.

Since I had found you... it's been a complete turn around
I smiled and laughed again... not much gets me down.
I was quite happy when I saw you
Wondering what we would do each day

Studying, chatting, laughing and the movie we watched
You made my every day a year ago
It seems so silly how someone could become your everything.
I thought we had the perfect romance

Till you turned around and left me behind
and We are moving towards the end
I never thought I'd see this day,
I never thought I'd feel this way,
You are a stranger to me now.

What hurts the most is I now know..
What I lost.. and I'm alone.
To face a challenge life has sent,
Everything changes, the same as with human life

The second chapter has just begun
I know you think the story's over
Though you could be with anyone
I cannot be with any other

So I've decided I'll not let anyone in anymore
I don't need a partner to be happy
I'll walk alone towards my destiny and my dream
Fulfill my destiny is on top of my priority list now

When you chase things, they run away.

Just when I start thinking it's within my reach, it runs away from me. it keeps going on like that

If I say " if I don't get it, I'll die" that sounds more like desperate people haha
Honestly I'm not desperate at all, I just don't like that phrase. I may have a dream and a goal that I can't achieve it now but I don't care how long it takes, I'll get it for sure

Fulfilling my destiny...

Memories

Memories are contrary things; if you quit chasing them and turn your back, they often return on their own. How far do you agree??


We don't forget.... Our heads may be small, but they are as full of memories as the sky may sometimes be full of starts at night, thousands and thousands of memories, of smells, of places, of little things that happened to us and which came back, unexpectedly, to remind us who we are.

Time Time Time...

Time time time
by A.G.K.H

Sometimes I look at the watch
And wish I could stop time, but I can't
Cause time is God's tool, to determine.
Everything grows, and dies
Could time suffer and die?
Is time flat? Or is time round?
Where is time? Can time be found?
Is time there with each beat of my heart?
Was time there from the very start?
Is time bound? Or is time free?
Is time that, what is meant to be?
I can't say yes or no cause god
Is the only one who knows…

Your Guardian Angel

Your Guardian Angel
by A.G.K.H

When a poor little girl's crying for help
God sent me to take a good care of her

When I saw you for the first time
I wanna tell you I was sent to guide your path

When you sit in silence, wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on till your tears run dry

When I see you going home alone
I'll accompany you on a walk

When you have been hurt and need someone to talk to
I will be the one to lighten your burdens

When we've our problems
I'm glad that you know I truly do care about you

When we are apart
I feel so cold and my poor heart aches

When the night comes
I'll stay awake just to hear you breath calmly and see you asleep

When I realize that I have wings
I remember heaven and earth can not allow such a love

When I was sent to guide your path
I never thought I could fall this hard

When I was sent to look after you
I never thought I would fall at all

Visit a dentist

My dad hasnt been to the dentist in a long time. So before we all go to USA, me and my mom have decided to bring my dad to a dentist to do a check up.A miracle happened today because he never want to go to dentist before, he would find 1001 reasons just to stop us bring him to dentist but this morning when we forced him to go to my cousin's office(dental office), he said yes but under one condition we need to accompany him and the first thing that poped up in my mind was He was so scared till the whole family need to accompany him haha. I just realize the worst part's that my dad had worked for US government for 21 years and he got an insurance, he could use that to do dental care but he never use it. Just after he has retired and got no insurance, he went to dentist. Damn wasted!!

HOMEWORK!

When I was schooling in Indonesia, none of the student would complain or make a fuss in the class when our teacher's giving us homework. In Singapore, when the teacher's giving homework, students would complain or express their unhappiness.
They would say:
I HATE HOMEWORK
It makes me wanna go berserk
I wish a bomb would explode my homework to bits
I would let my dog eat it
Homework's so boring
I would do my homework when pig could fly
I always do my homework but it's always wrong
I rather swim in a pool with a shark
Who give a damn or who cares about it
The next day I go to school I get more homework
Homework is a DISASTER

And then I asked " But doesn't everyone believe that?"
Most of students never consider the alternative solution: change beliefs
Some students like to do their homework. You just need the courage to think the unfamiliar

Be who u want me to be

Forgive me, I cant see the point of your anger
Nor I can read & understand what's in your heart

Forgive me, I've intruded your lives
And tried to find a room in your heart

I know I can never be a guy who you want me to be
But as long as I'm still breathing, I'll keep trying

I know it's him, a guy who's perfect to you
But as long as I'm alive, I'll keep trying

I know it's him that you want
But as long as I don't stop dreaming, hoping and believing
I'll keep trying to be who you want me to be

Your Friend
by A.G.K.H

Acquaintances are many but friends are very rare
You can share your happiness to friends
Trusting friends your secrets that you can share
Your friend will comfort you and advise you and you will not betray
Your friend will never disown you and as your friend will stay
When others do not wish to know you, your friend remain
And feel lucky in your lifetime if one loyal friend you gain
Your friend will always stand by you no matter what may come
And when you ask your friend for help your friend will not turn you away
None of your Acquaintances will stand by you when you are feeling down
When others shun you as if you were an outcast of the town
Acquaintances like Nature's Seasons they come to your life and go
But your friend for lifetime will come to your life and stay
And then the one who betrays your trust could never be your friend
Your friend to you is ever true and one on whom you can depend.

When I was in the church last night, I met some of my friends. So I decided to hang out with them after the mass. Honestly I just want them to update me a little on what's been happening since I was gone. I felt damn awkward because no body wanna talk to me unless I talked to them first but I understand that because I've gone for so long and I didn't even try to contact them when I was in Singapore. I need to start somewhere so I could talk to them and I decided to share my experiences. It worked! I managed to know a little about their world haha

In conclusion, I would like to say they believe in something that keep them poor and miserable!
They believe
People should return their favours!
People should love them back
People should give them support
People should treat them accordingly

What they want seem a reasonable set of expectations. But what if people didn't have to agree with them, return their favours, love them back, treat them accordingly? How would that affect their life?
Forget about these 'should' things, it's too stressful. The less you demand appreciation from others, the more you get. Your happiness is not in somebody's hands!
Btw,

HAPPY EASTER!!

I will
by A.G.K.H

I'll always be there for you when you need someone
Will you be there for me when I need you?

I'll always listen to you even when I dont understand
Will you listen to me or turn away b'coz you dont understand?

I'll never try to change you but appreciate you for who you are
Will you appreciate me for who I really am?

I'll never push you away or testing you
Will you do the same?

I'll always share my dreams, hopes and fears with you
Will you share your dreams, hopes and fears with me?

I'll accept your attitudes, ideas and emotions
Will you accept my attitudes, ideas and emotions?

I'll hold your hand when you're scared
Will you hold mine when I'm scared?

I'll be honest with you even when it may hurt you
Will you be honest with me?

I'll forgive you for the mistakes you make
Will you forgive my mistakes?

I'll always love you for no matter what
Will you always love me no matter what?

I'll always cherish the moments that we shared
Will you cherish the moments that we shared?

Broken day
by A.G.K.H.

My roof leaks
My laptop shuts down
My cell phone on low batteries
My study lamp has broken

Some things broken
and I wish they were not
but at the same time
I just go on with that

Sometimes I enjoy
this broken day has to offer
I relax on sad thoughts
and I wish nobody know

Thinking of you

I think of you in the morning and I think of you at night
I think of you when you're far away and when you're in plain sight
I think of you when I'm happy and I think of you when I'm sad
I think of you when things are wonderful and when they're going bad
I think of you when I'm busy and I think of you when I'm bored
I think of you when everyone seems to love me and when I'm being ignored
I think of you when it's cold and I think of you when it's hot
I think of when I'm alone and even when I'm not
I think of you when I'm at home and I think of you when I'm out
I think of you when I'm thinking because you're all I'm thinking about

This tattoo looks damn real and it scared the hell out of my friends LOL. Btw it's a temporary tattoo. I don't wanna spend the rest of my life with that tattoo on my palm ^^

"Live through today for tommorow's sake"

This one serves as decoration to motivate me every times I feel down
This temporary tattoo is drawn by using ballpoint pen

On The Road
by A.G.K.H

Past this place in the road
There isn't much traffic on the road
But I see many people walking
Someone is standing there

As I approach, I notice she is beautiful
Excuse me young lady, you are carying great load
Where are you going? Maybe I can help you?
If you need a ride, I'd be happy to oblige

Get in to my car, I'll take you for a ride
Down country roads, up city streets
I can get you where you need to go
Because I'm a country boy

You sure look good, sitting in left seat
Fasten your seat belt young lady
Because I'll take you through the five speeds
She smiles up and she knows she'll be all right

The pop songs on the radio is really good
I crank up the volume as the tone got real good
Let me know when we're getting close
So you can slide out from my car

I stop my car as I see her house
She slides out and smile up to the sky
She thanks me for this one day
I wish I could take her for a ride again someday

We're suppose to write our own story, aren't we? Most of us have a story. I labeled myself... I was a student from Whitley a years ago so I had to act like a student and behave like one. I realize something now trying to fit a story makes us miserable. If in my story I'm a student, when I'm not a student anymore, I don't know what I am. The truth is I'm not my story and nobody cares anyway. I don't belong in a category. I'm a human being having a series of experiences.

Before I came to Singapore, I always thought that I never like English so didn't want to learn it properly. I told myself like that and it kept me in the box. I didn't know why I should learn English. When I was clear about why I need to study English, it's easier for me to study it.

Human Nature

Human beings have inborn tendencies that are destructive to themselves, to other, and to society.
The effect of human emotion on our lives is that our intellect is darkened and our will is weakened. In other words, we don't always think straight and clearly, nor do we always choose wisely. We often have our facts wrong or incomplete. We often do judge impulsively and incorrectly. We often do act in destructive ways.

I don't want to let these human emotions cloud my thinking and direct my choices in destructive ways. They are confused, false, inaccurate ways of thinking with a will that's weak when it comes to making hard decisions

Three Basic Question

This feeling of anger frequently arose when people didn't think the "right" way-my way.
One night as I laid on my bed, I began to ask myself:
> Where's it written that I've to be perfect?
> Where's it written that everyone has to like me or agree with me?
> Where's it written that the world has to be fair?

Here are some of the things I began to say to myself:
> I don't have to be perfect. In fact I can't be perfect. I'm not perfect!!
Perhaps this is one of the times when I'm off base

> Everyone doesn't have to like me or agree with me. Maybe this person has good reasons for not liking what I'm saying or doing. If the person doesn't have good reasons, then the problem is his/her, not mine.

> The world is not fair. Even if this situation is unfair, I know that life doesn't have to be painful because life is a series of lessons I need, happening in perfect order.